Thank you for the word drilling. Since starting, I’ve seen my production levels increase.
Eight years ago, it could take me anywhere from thirty minutes to two hours to clear up the meaning of a word. Now, it happened as fast as five minutes or less.
More than that, you’ve helped me handle a source of trauma that has been going on since I was a child. Without being entirely aware of it, I was constantly getting upset by being abandoned by others. It started before the age of ten. My father would leave for three months at a time and I cried myself to sleep so many times. I couldn’t even tell you how many times it happened.
When he passed away in 2010, it was so overwhelming that I would break down emotionally when alone and it’s been a big ruin in my life.
Now that I’m in present time, I’ve realized I can handle it, that I’m okay with being rejected, being left alone; because I’ve noticed that I can still progress and improve regardless of having someone there for me or not.
Thank you for the stability.