All my life I did not know what I didn’t know. From today I will know what I know even if it is only one word (the word at). It is a start! These are the nuts and bolts of the English language. I now have a communication tool with which I can express place and location. I didn’t get it until I got it.
What was life like before? When I was supposed to learn I ran away. I didn’t know there was a structure of learning. My aunt was an academic. She worked for the government and told me, “If you cannot spell and read like the other guys, you will be called stupid.”
I felt guilty and ashamed. In the past, I was running a program to protect myself. That’s how I existed. I ran away!
When my kids came home for homework I went fishing! I would go to the end of the river with the fishing rod because I didn’t know how to communicate with anybody, including my daughters. I had to run away from my kids. I didn’t want to be confronted with the embarrassment that I couldn’t help. I felt guilt and shame all my life because I couldn’t spell, read, or write as the other guys could.
My mental health was very fragile. Nobody presented me with a system of learning and understanding. I never had that awareness that I could communicate through English.
Expression comes in many guises. I was looking for satisfaction. Something I was good at: the kitchen. Here, I had my structure and I knew what I had to do.
I knew something was missing, but I was not aware of what was missing.
Ollie the Elephant is what I was looking for my whole life! In my education, this was hidden from the start. This is what was missing. I didn’t know that I didn’t know.
This program is like it’s made from heaven. This is amazing! The gradient work in it made communication so much easier and with that clarity of communication.
With that level of communication, I can express myself. I can be me.